My love for art and music became a lifeline for me.  The music came first.  When I began to play and sing, my mind began to heal.  The reason my mind needed healing was because of my involvement in the New Age movement.  I had opened my mind up to many ideas that originated in occultic practices. Psychometery,channeling, 
psychic healing, automatice writing, astrology, telepathy, are some of the activities that  caused me to develop a passive mind that was open to impressions from the New Age spirit world.  This kind of activity causes as much damaage as illegal drug addiction.  With both you are essentially giving your mind over to dangerous and unknown powers.   

However, it was the condition of my fragmented emotions and deep insecurities that led me into occultic practices.  Great pain from parts of my childhood along with a generational propensity for depression left me ill-equipped to enter life as a young adult. I was looking for significance in all the wrong places.  What I wanted most of all was acceptance and safety.

As I realized that truly God so loved the world that He gave me His Son, I began to trust His goodness and his love for me personally.  His comforting Holy Spirit taught me and empowered me to be able to live this life and overcome all those things that tried to destroy me.